Yup that's me.
Time was, writers were expected to be tortured, mysterious souls. But those days are over it seems. The only people who get away with obsessive, compulsive, neurotic behaviour are celebs, including published and highly successful writers. You've got no chance if you are just another sad scribbler hacking away at your lap top.
Shame though. I would have loved to write an agent pitch letter that said,
'...and one last thing, apart from my brilliant, visual, viceral prose, you should also sign me up because I am tortured like you wouldn't believe and my little store room frequently doubles up as a garret.' Bet that Snark bird would love it.